Who's That Girl?

I don't know how to explain what the past week's been like for me... I feel very outside of myself these days -- like I'm watching this woman who looks a lot like me do these things that I, personally, would just never be able to do. I am utterly in awe of her, I'm proud of her and to be completely honest, I'm a teeny tiny bit scared of her. I don't know how to make that make sense. I've never felt like this before.

The play's been going really well.... I'm not crying anymore before I go on... I shake and hyperventilate a little (the stage crew and cast are constantly reminding me to breath *grin*) -- but no more weeping. And on Saturday, it actually felt.... fun! The last scene is still super hard for me to do... but I do it!

This play is changing everything for me..... it's so odd to be in the middle of this -- to be aware of your life shifting. It's overwhelming.

Last night, a great group of friends (Dana, Allyson, Jackie and Becky) came to see the show -- and afterwards, they bought me champagne and told me I was beautiful on stage -- that I was great at what I was doing. That made me cry... just a bit. And I also made myself read the reviews last night -- which I had NOT been doing. And -- ummmm..... they like it too!!!! The Reader had great things to say... as did the Omaha World-Herald -- and the City Weekly was insane -- with a great review of the play AND an amazing review of the show that's currently up in the gallery!!! I'll post them as soon as they're online....

This past week was just a great one. In addition to the play, I got to chat with Evan and Christy (both of whom I haven't spoken with in ages) and I got to spend time with my friend, Zac -- who spent the night on Tuesday with his friend Ben -- as they head west on this great road trip from Pittsburgh through the southwest to Seattle

Zac (on the right) is one of the trio of artists that I met at the Bemis in 2004 and went off to Seattle with. I adore him -- and haven't had a chance to see him in almost 2 years. I wish the visit could have lasted longer ... but it was great meeting him and making a new friend in Ben. As they were getting ready to leave on Wednesday -- they asked me to come with them.... and ugh! if it hadn't been for the play, I think I'd be camping at the Grand Canyon right now.

I hope another 2 years doesn't pass before I get to see him again. Chatting with him made me miss Seattle very much -- I miss the mountains and the water and walking down to to Pike Place Market -- I miss it lots. I wish I could get back there this year, I'm not sure that's really possible, but it's something to aim for.

So yeah ----- things are good in the Big O! these days. This weekend, I'm doing the play right through Sunday, going to catch some of the Bull Riding Event at the Bemis and there's a cast party tomorrow night, which should be fun. I hope to get some work done in the yard this weekend too... maybe get some things into the ground... I think Spring has finally arrived here -- the trees are greening up and there are great storms at night. Things are just really good.

Really, really good.