On Friday night, I broke the heel off one of my favorite shoes at The Waiting Room... 1/2 way through a concert. I was just standing there chatting with someone and suddenly, I'm falling backwards. Perfect!
Then -- on Saturday -- I don't even open the store -- decided to give myself an extra day off and head to KC a bit early.... but at some point during my errands that morning........... I LOSE THE KEY TO MY HOUSE. No -- I wish I was kidding. I get home to nab some things before getting on the road.... go to open the front door -- and ---- no house key! I check EVERY WHERE before giving up and getting back in the car and just leaving. I get to KC a few hours later...... and find the missing key in the pocket of my dress -- I really have no idea how it got there.... Maria said it was a sign --- I think she may have been right.
The weekend? The weekend was absolute perfection from the moment I hit I29 South. The drive down was beautiful --- I love making that trip -- just lots of green fields, blue sky and time to think. I sang along with Joanna Newsom all the way down -- screaming at top of my lungs --- which might explain why I lost my voice on Sunday.
Can we chat about Kansas City for a moment? Please?
I LOVE that city ---- I mean.... I LOVE it. I love driving into it. I love the people there -- the food and the art and the way it feels. I love the neighborhoods and architecture.... Kansas City just makes me feel excited and happy -- every time I visit, it's the same.
And the men.............. *sigh* ............. the eye candy never stops in Kansas City. So many wonderful new faces to steal glances at..... I love it.... just looking out the window at dinner is a joy.
I had the best time.... had a great dinner, the BEST burger at a spot called Blanc Burgers & Bottles -- visited the Nelson and saw this -- which left me gobsmacked, went to a great cocktail party where I visited the studio of an amazing artist, Maria & Torry had a BBQ so that I could visit with friends... it was just the best time.
And --- I got to spend two whole days with the love of my life...
Sofi just gets more amazing each time I see her. I was in awe of her every day... she changes so much with each visit. We just played all day and sang and danced... there just aren't words for how much I love this little girl.
Kansas City was good for me. It gave me time to think and work out what I've been feeling lately. Maria helped me sort some things out -- helped me see a few things I couldn't see clearly on my own... she's kinda been spending the better part of the past 30 years doing that, I guess. I would be lost without her. No lie.
I realized that --- sometimes, I'm wrong. About people and places and things. More importantly, I realized that ----- that's okay! Even when things don't work the way I hoped they would.... I'm learning new lessons and sorting shit out -- THAT'S what really matters. I have options and choices and support systems that I tend to be blind to most of the time. But what's best? I have a million adventures -- just waiting for me to make them happen. Why I forget such simple things is beyond me -- but I do. I get too caught up in the "Can'ts" ---------- I need to stop that.
Because, I CAN. I can do so many things.... I just need to claim them and do them and make them happen. It's never too late...... for anything, you know?
Anyways ---- I feel 200% better than I did a week ago -- focused and opptimistic........ and joyful.
Joyful.
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